Bossyfussbums

Bossyfussbum is a perfect title for me when I am emotionally out of balance.  When my hearts GPS system has gone off line I become controlling, pedantic and quite frankly a pain in the bum!

I use this term with myself affectionately as it tickles my sense of humour and helps me have a good laugh at myself.  It helps me immensely if I don’t take myself too seriously or punish myself for not being everything to everyone, all the time.

01/13/2010 - 09:04
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What The Hell Is Twitter?

I only really understood how a Blog actually works after seeing the movie Julie, Julia with The Glamazon, my dear girlfriend, before Christmas in 2009.  As I watched the written word fly like a butterfly from the actresses laptop into the wonderful world of cyberspace throughout this movie, my heart started to flutter.

I learn, connect and love through being told stories.  I need colour, characters and a message that connects to my heart.  If you can’t move me to laugh, cry or feel something constructive and meaningful, then you’ve probably lost me.

01/14/2010 - 09:24
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Hungover

Here’s a visual for you … A menopausal mother in a mosh pit? I spent 12 hours yesterday at a music festival with around 50,000 Generation Y’ers in the sweltering Queensland heat. It’s a jungle out there!

My sons played the first gig on their forthcoming national tour yesterday. I stood gob smacked as I watched them both own that stage. My babies. Now Rock Stars, oops, I mean Indy (Independent) Rock Stars. Don’t ask me what that really means, I haven’t a clue.

01/18/2010 - 15:27
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Homicide, Suicide and Pesticide

Who hasn’t had dark thoughts about wishing that all the people and things in our lives that give us the shits would go away forever?

That was a big part of the attraction for me in “getting blind” or “getting out of it”. Booze, pills and drugs, seemed to be a very effective solution for me (prior to my recovery that commenced in 1995) in making all the difficult stuff in life go away … for a little while anyway.

01/19/2010 - 10:17
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Conflicted about conflict?

“Conflict is a part of every growing and healthy relationship.” My therapist (The Gentle Giant) said to me slowly and clearly in my session last night.

“It is normal and natural to disagree, and to sometimes be unbalanced when you do.” I know he was stating the obvious but somewhere along the way in my 47 years of life I have always thought that if I felt conflicted about an issue with another person, that somehow I must be in the wrong.

01/21/2010 - 09:22
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Molesting Mangoes?

Yeah right! Have you ever heard of anything so ridiculous?

I was gob smacked when I was accused of this very act. Just yesterday, in broad daylight at one of my favourite fruit and veggie shops a complete stranger was ready to put me in emotional handcuffs.

For those who are new to my blog, I am a nature lover. I am the sort of woman who apologises to flowers if I drop them whilst trying to trim and arrange their lovely legs in a vase. Mother Nature and Father Time have been my hearts parents all my life and I respect and adore them.

01/23/2010 - 08:38
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Running on Empty?

Three divine days in Paradise The sun, sand, surf, sex, sleep, snuggles and spectacular sunsets. The photo above is of the view from our verandah of beautiful Moreton Island.

One would think this combination would emotionally re fuel most people. By my third evening away on Moreton Island, with all of the above filling my days and nights, I was out of emotional fuel. I found myself running on empty and had to put myself to bed early.

01/28/2010 - 06:33
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The Brave and Beautiful Black Sheep

Shit makes great fertilizer... If you want to grow beautiful roses, you will need some manure. When I meet people in rehabs and jails who say to me that they ‘can’t get their shit together’ or that they have had ‘so much shit go down in their lives’ this is when I remind them of this phrase.

01/29/2010 - 10:34
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